The Scale

I have decided that I am only going to weigh myself once a month. At the end of every month I will stand on the scale and see if I have gained weight or lost weight. I find that the numbers all get stuck in my head and it totally messes with my mind. I like to know how many calories I am eating, I like to know how many calories I am burning, and I would like to know if I am losing weight on the scale.  This is hard for me. Every morning I stand  on the scale, then I have to re-position the scale because our floor is not leveled, and will give an inaccurate number. I tend to fluctuate between 3 lbs. 133lbs -135lbs. I know I am losing weight because of how my clothes are fitting, so why is the number on the scale such a big deal? Well, I'm not sure. I don't know if it is because I have always been under 130lbs?? I don't know if it is because I am working so hard, and to not see those numbers just drop make me fee like I'm doing something incorrectly or not working out hard enough. Whatever the reason may be I do know that I don't want to focus on it. I know that muscle mass weighs more than fat. I have never been this toned in my life, even though I was skinnier then. I know that I AM working HARD. I'm still learning, I'm still getting stronger. So I need to change my mindset. I don't want to workout until I reach a certain goal. I want it to be my lifestyle. I want to do it because I want my kids to learn how to be healthy. :sigh: It's difficult, but as long as I am fitting into my smaller clothes, than I know I am doing just what I am suppose to be doing...