Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Ran/walk
Time: 32 min
Distance: 2.20 miles
Calories:130

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Ran/walk
Distance : 2 miles
Calories: 196
Time: 30 min

Monday, August 29, 2011

Ran/walk
Distance : 1.90 miles
Time: 30
Calories: 190

Friday, August 26, 2011

Danced, and Danced

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Ran
Distance: 1 mile
Time 14 min
Calories 97


Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Ran
Distance: 1.o6 miles
Time 17 min
Calories: 94

Ran
Distance 1 mile
Time: 16
Calories: 84

Monday, August 22, 2011

Ran/walk
Distance: 2 miles
Time: 31.22
Calories: 191

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Ran/jogged
Time: 30 min 14 sec
Distance: 2 miles
Calories: 185

i hate this.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Run/Walk
Distance: 1.65 miles
Time: 30 min
Calories 148

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

distance: 1 mile
ran.walk
calories : 78
time : 17 min

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Distance: 1.25 miles
Time: 25 min
Calories: 114
Running.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Frustration : Aggravation: Hesitation : Limitations

30 min of running.
Miles : 1.66
Calories 184

I have to say that this is all depressing to me. I hate it. I hate that you have to work your ass off for 3 weeks to make 2 tiny steps, and then if you take 2 weeks off you end up 2 giant steps back. It's frustrating. It's hard. At the same time, I love vacations but I hate them. I was doing so well and then we went to WA. DC for a week. It completely threw everything off.  I want to give up. I do. I want to sit around and eat whatever I want. But  I can't do that. I can't if I want to lose weight, tone up and fit into a size 4/6.... How do people do this? How do they push themselves? How do they find the energy to get on the treadmill, to sweat it out to a workout dvd?  I want to cry. Am I pathetic? I thought exercise is suppose to release endorphin's? Instead all I feel is doubt. Doubt that I can achieve my goal. I feel defeated. Isn't this just horrible? Okay so as i am typing my left knee is pulled up on the chair that I'm sitting on, my head is down with my forehead resting upon it and my eyes are closed. Breathe, Breathe. I don't know if I will ever shrink. But today i did good. i ran. i did something. Just keep going. One day at a time. Now pick your head up and move forward. Don't think about the negatives. Don't let the doubt consume you. You're a mother of 3 and you can do anything. Just keep going. It's entirely up to me. I can do this.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Ran/walk
Time: 32 min
Distance: 2.20 miles
Calories:130

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Ran/walk
Distance : 2 miles
Calories: 196
Time: 30 min

Monday, August 29, 2011

Ran/walk
Distance : 1.90 miles
Time: 30
Calories: 190

Friday, August 26, 2011

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Ran
Distance: 1 mile
Time 14 min
Calories 97


Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Ran
Distance: 1.o6 miles
Time 17 min
Calories: 94

Ran
Distance 1 mile
Time: 16
Calories: 84

Monday, August 22, 2011

Ran/walk
Distance: 2 miles
Time: 31.22
Calories: 191

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Ran/jogged
Time: 30 min 14 sec
Distance: 2 miles
Calories: 185

i hate this.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Run/Walk
Distance: 1.65 miles
Time: 30 min
Calories 148

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

distance: 1 mile
ran.walk
calories : 78
time : 17 min

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Distance: 1.25 miles
Time: 25 min
Calories: 114
Running.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Frustration : Aggravation: Hesitation : Limitations

30 min of running.
Miles : 1.66
Calories 184

I have to say that this is all depressing to me. I hate it. I hate that you have to work your ass off for 3 weeks to make 2 tiny steps, and then if you take 2 weeks off you end up 2 giant steps back. It's frustrating. It's hard. At the same time, I love vacations but I hate them. I was doing so well and then we went to WA. DC for a week. It completely threw everything off.  I want to give up. I do. I want to sit around and eat whatever I want. But  I can't do that. I can't if I want to lose weight, tone up and fit into a size 4/6.... How do people do this? How do they push themselves? How do they find the energy to get on the treadmill, to sweat it out to a workout dvd?  I want to cry. Am I pathetic? I thought exercise is suppose to release endorphin's? Instead all I feel is doubt. Doubt that I can achieve my goal. I feel defeated. Isn't this just horrible? Okay so as i am typing my left knee is pulled up on the chair that I'm sitting on, my head is down with my forehead resting upon it and my eyes are closed. Breathe, Breathe. I don't know if I will ever shrink. But today i did good. i ran. i did something. Just keep going. One day at a time. Now pick your head up and move forward. Don't think about the negatives. Don't let the doubt consume you. You're a mother of 3 and you can do anything. Just keep going. It's entirely up to me. I can do this.